Another christmas has come and gone and yes…we are still here…we survived the end of the world…..I guess we all knew we would still be here…I along with many of you will always wonder if there was more than just a mere (I never got around to finish the calendar) in the Mayan's head for stopping the calendar on 12/21/12….I guess we'll never know.
One valuable lesson that I believe we have all learned is that life goes on…and on…and on…and on….what life has in store for us is up to us….it's time to change who we are and how we think of life in general…it's time to shift our focus into a more positive one…there is one quote that comes to mind that is quite appropriate at the moment….
"You are not in the world…the world is in you…." ZEN
Yes, the world is within us…each and everyone of us….it is important to always keep in mind that we have to forget what anyhow we feel and always remember what we DESERVE and make that a part of living our lives. If we aim for what we deserve we do not leave room for that which is harmful to us. We deserve it all, and we will have it all!
No more excuses…those of us who want to make it to the top of our desires will find the path…those who do not will find excuses! No more excuses!!
Today I will embark on a journey to the top of my desires….today I make a commitment to achieve all my dreams…today I make a commitment to myself!
What would it have been like to not have left my mother's womb after nine months? Death I suppose not only for myself, but also for my mother. It seems that in life we are constantly in need of "leaving"…thinking about it…after I left my mother's womb….that comfort zone where I knew I would be safe…I came into another safety zone…the comfort of my nest…my home…where I learned to crawl, to walk, to talk, and to love and be loved…then….soon enough I had to leave again…I had to go to school…..years passed and I became accustomed to this new comfort zone…only to find that thirteen years later I would once again have to leave….now it was time for the world…my world consisted of college…others went straight into the work force…but I was faced with life…with independence…my adult life began at this point…I didn't really know what that meant since my essence was still of a child. My essence still wanted to be loved, understood and protected. I had dreams, but realized that those dreams were scary….what was I to do at that point….well what any sensible person would…I chose a "HALF LIFE"….a "SAFE LIFE"….I stayed close to home I married but never truly gave my all…needless to say that failed…I can't say I failed…I had to live and learn….so here I am now….at a point where I am making a commitment to myself…it is time to come into my life…A time to finally leave the womb…a time to be born into myself…A time to need only of me…A time to be happy in my loneliness….to celebrate me…a time to be happy with ME! My loneliness is not an isolation….for I am not alone…I have a loving family and great friends….my loneliness is instead mediation…..reflection…but most importantly it is the love of ME! To some it may be difficult to understand how having so many people around and having so many people want me around, I would prefer to be alone….but it's time…it's time to let go of my ego and move forward to LIVE my BEST LIFE!!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Senseless.....and Uranus turns direct....
We have all been consumed by the senseless shooting that took place at Sandy Hook Elementary in Newtown, Connecticut...I can't even imagine what it is like to be in the shoes of the victim's families....I can understand their pain, but only they truly feel the horror in their hearts. My heart is broken and the pain I feel is inexplicable...so how must they feel? Probably an infinity amount worse...I pray that they find the strength that they need to get passed this. What have we come to? When did we lose sight of the gift of life...ironically the planet Uranus turned direct the day before...I just hope that this is not a preview of what is to come...When I read the below statement from Emilie Parker's grandfather I could not stop the tears from running down my cheeks.
“My son and his wife are tucking their children into bed, and there’s an empty bed. And it breaks my heart,” he said.
“My son and his wife are tucking their children into bed, and there’s an empty bed. And it breaks my heart,” he said.
I sit here typing and asking myself why? Their time was finished on this earth and those 26 souls HAVE to be in a beautiful place! They deserve to be in a beautiful place! Actually, what they truly deserve is to live and to leave this life differently not for someone to come and take their life away the way that it was taken!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
CHANGE YOUR LIFE....
The unhappy ones live their life waiting for "THE DAY" when their luck will change....ignoring the fact that "THEY" are "THE ONES" that can change their LUCK!!!! Take charge!!! CHANGE YOUR LUCK!!!
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Looking Back
Monday, December 10, 2012
December 10, 2012..4 days til December 14, 2012
The November eclipses hit me directly and I can't see that I have seen anything really substantial come out of them...other than the fact that my relationship is totally in a "I SUCK" moment! So...as astrologers say...look to see one month and one day from the eclipse for something to happen....hmmm....I four days away from the December 14th date....and quite frankly as crazy as this may sound I am totally waiting for something major to happen....as my beautiful cousin Dalila would say "you're crazy!" But yes I look forward to the changes that come about from eclipses. I am ready for a new start...I want something great and exciting...I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!
ECLIPSES of NOVEMBER 2012
I started this back in November, and for some reason left it as a draft...so...I will post it and keep you posted on what is to come :)
... I am very much into understanding the science of Astrology...I figure what better place to start than in my own chart...I am always looking at my chart, and am always begging my favorite cousin Dalila...whom is a bit psychic I might add...to look at my chart as well, since she is much more advanced in the study of Astrology.
Back to the point....in looking at my chart I noticed that both of these eclipses are going to affect me directly. The solar one on November 13, 2012, is EXACTLY on my ascendant, trining my Mercury. The lunar eclipse on November 28, 2012 is conjunct my moon and trining my Jupiter. (From what I have learned Jupiter is good) So, maybe these eclipses are not going to affect me in a negative way, or so I hope.
The Solar Eclipse
I had to read up on what the expert astrologer's had to say about these eclipses and seeing that the second eclipse on November 28, 2012 is affecting my 7th house and my Juno AND has such strong aspects going on in the sky at the same time....
(Note to self: Oppostitions create awarenesses that come to us externally. They are extremely powerful and place the planets in conflict with each other, producing difficulties, but increasing the range of possibilities open to us)
Basically, we can make a choice to either take responsibility for our choices and our actions or project these onto other people. It's up to us...it's our choice...therefore the more we practice conscious awareness the closer we will be to matching our thoughts and feelings with the Law of Attraction and this in turn will take us closer into evolving our souls to recognize that we create our reality from our thoughts and feelings.
The moon will be in the dark during the eclipse which will pull us deep inside ourselves...it gives us the opportunity to go into the core of our being to discover who we truly are. We can make our dreams a reality at the Eclipse by obtaining the support we need from the universe.
Now back to me....
November 28, 2012
Venus is squaring my Jupiter which can lead to excess or over indulgence...(Note to self: Don't eat a lot during Thanksgiving)...the sun is also conjunct my Juno which is in my first house making this effect a direct aspect to my Juno which really should mean that my other half (Jesus) and I should be moving towards permanence (keyword: SHOULD) ...today is December 1 and Mercury should be direct by now so perhaps while Mercury went from stationary to direct it caused some type of friction between us because I always seem to get upset with him when Mercury moves around...when it went retrograde it was the same thing...Who knows maybe this argument is energetically positive and the stars will be right and we will come together...but right now I just don't feel like it! I know I should just flow with the energy, but it is very difficult...Our relationship is far from normal and right now I just want to run from it!
This eclipse is also conjunct my moon and trine my Jupiter which can translate into an abundance of renewal and culmination of emotions...I guess I will soon see if this is positive or negative...I really do hope that Jupiter protects me
Additionally, my progressed moon moved into my first house on November 25th...which should bring me rewards and recognitions for all my hard work
Uranus is currently in my 5th house of creativity is in trine to my Neptune in my first house which makes me very intuitive/psychic...it enables me to take on new creative/spiritual activities...
... I am very much into understanding the science of Astrology...I figure what better place to start than in my own chart...I am always looking at my chart, and am always begging my favorite cousin Dalila...whom is a bit psychic I might add...to look at my chart as well, since she is much more advanced in the study of Astrology.
Back to the point....in looking at my chart I noticed that both of these eclipses are going to affect me directly. The solar one on November 13, 2012, is EXACTLY on my ascendant, trining my Mercury. The lunar eclipse on November 28, 2012 is conjunct my moon and trining my Jupiter. (From what I have learned Jupiter is good) So, maybe these eclipses are not going to affect me in a negative way, or so I hope.
The Solar Eclipse
I had to read up on what the expert astrologer's had to say about these eclipses and seeing that the second eclipse on November 28, 2012 is affecting my 7th house and my Juno AND has such strong aspects going on in the sky at the same time....
This Gemini Lunar eclipse from what I have read is all about revealing the power of love. It's going to be our last eclipse in 2012 and the last Gemini eclipse until June of 2020...I can only hope to be around then...In the sky the Gemini Lunar eclipse is an opposition between the Sun which represents our consciousness and the Moon which represents our unconsciousness.
(Note to self: Oppostitions create awarenesses that come to us externally. They are extremely powerful and place the planets in conflict with each other, producing difficulties, but increasing the range of possibilities open to us)
Basically, we can make a choice to either take responsibility for our choices and our actions or project these onto other people. It's up to us...it's our choice...therefore the more we practice conscious awareness the closer we will be to matching our thoughts and feelings with the Law of Attraction and this in turn will take us closer into evolving our souls to recognize that we create our reality from our thoughts and feelings.
The moon will be in the dark during the eclipse which will pull us deep inside ourselves...it gives us the opportunity to go into the core of our being to discover who we truly are. We can make our dreams a reality at the Eclipse by obtaining the support we need from the universe.
Now back to me....
November 28, 2012
Venus is squaring my Jupiter which can lead to excess or over indulgence...(Note to self: Don't eat a lot during Thanksgiving)...the sun is also conjunct my Juno which is in my first house making this effect a direct aspect to my Juno which really should mean that my other half (Jesus) and I should be moving towards permanence (keyword: SHOULD) ...today is December 1 and Mercury should be direct by now so perhaps while Mercury went from stationary to direct it caused some type of friction between us because I always seem to get upset with him when Mercury moves around...when it went retrograde it was the same thing...Who knows maybe this argument is energetically positive and the stars will be right and we will come together...but right now I just don't feel like it! I know I should just flow with the energy, but it is very difficult...Our relationship is far from normal and right now I just want to run from it!
This eclipse is also conjunct my moon and trine my Jupiter which can translate into an abundance of renewal and culmination of emotions...I guess I will soon see if this is positive or negative...I really do hope that Jupiter protects me
Additionally, my progressed moon moved into my first house on November 25th...which should bring me rewards and recognitions for all my hard work
Uranus is currently in my 5th house of creativity is in trine to my Neptune in my first house which makes me very intuitive/psychic...it enables me to take on new creative/spiritual activities...
Saturday, December 1, 2012
12.1.12
Today is the beginning of a new month the last month of 2012...and my will is:
...to accomplish all my goals, wake up everyday with a smile on my face and make that smile last all day.
... to remember that a doctor can't give me medicine to cure a heartache...that is up to me....it's difficult but truly possible!
... to forget how I feel and remember what I deserve!
...to remember that no matter how hard it is to hear the truth it is always better than a thousand lies, the truth may hurt me, but a lie will destroy me!
...to remember that sometimes there is no next time, sometimes there are no second chances, sometimes it's now or never!
...to remember that to lose and learn is not a loss at all!
...to remember that my life is a puzzle and that each piece has a reason, a time, a place and a why...it's time to stop insisting in putting pieces where they don't fit. Don't fight destiny. What ever happens, happens for a reason!
...to remember that in life we have two options:
1-to be a good memory
2-to learn a great lesson
YOU HAVE BEEN BOTH!
...to remember that we don't always get what we want but eventually we get what we deserve!
...to remember that my best friend is my pillow, she shares my dreams, hears my thoughts, dries my tears, and accompanies my insomnia :)
...to remember that people change, love hurts, friends leave, things go wrong...but no mater what... LIFE GOES ON!
I choose to live my life differently from the past..the past cannot be changed but the future is in my power!
I WILL BE THE REASON I SMILE!
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