Mystical Rectangle

I just had a reading with an astrologer that I love to listen to on podcasts and for the first time in my life...I heard the term mystical rectangle.  Having been around Astrology my whole life (My mom has always believed in the knowledge of the stars) I had never heard of that before.  My mystical rectangle forms between: Sun - Moon - Jupiter - Neptune which is best expressed in my creative talent.

When looking at my chart I see that the four planets connected in the rectangle are two squares and two trines which also come together with oppositions connecting the opposite planets.  I am not sure of the outcome of the combination of tense and harmonious aspects and the end result of it....I guess I will have to keep my eyes open!

Solar Eclipse in Scorpio...

Today Venus moves into Scorpio which is my ascendant and the effects of the Solar eclipse that took place on November 13, 2012 are reawakened.  The eclipse took place exactly "ON" my ascendant and in a trine aspect with my Mercury...which basically means that my world is going to change in someway..and hopefully very positive.

Christmas Tree...Feng Shui...and LOVE...

I have been practicing Black Hat Feng Shui for more than fifteen years now...and must admit that I have through the years seen the positive and sometimes negative effects of placing objects correctly and incorrectly according to Feng Shui.  

Last year I was in a different apartment and the only location for me to place my christmas tree was in the wealth section.  I placed the tree and the intention (as I always do) and must say that it was quite a prosperous year.   Money started coming in about a week after I put up my tree! I don't usually wait until Thanksgiving to put up my tree.  I usually put it up right after Halloween. So needless to say the end of the year came with an amazing boom! 

This year I am a little behind schedule since it's a few days until Thanksgiving, but it has just been a busy year!  I am now in a townhouse (note..moved to a bigger place) and the wealth section of the home is not apt for tree placement so this year I have no choice but to put it in the relationships and love corner of the home.  My sex life has been great, but my love life leaves much to be desired.  I'm in a relationship with an amazing man whom I love very much, and I feel he loves me as well,  but unfortunately he is emotionally and physically unavailable.  My intention this year will be for a resolution in this aspect of my life. Now...all of you crazies..I am not saying that the tree is going to make my life all better and I will be living happily ever after, it is the intention. The mind is a very powerful thing.  

I just finished the tree and it looks beautiful (as always)...let's see how it goes...

I'm still here...

Emotions take the best of us, and no matter how much you know how wrong you are, your heart for some reason over powers all of your senses.  

WHAT IS LOVE?

What is love really? A feeling that eventually will inflict pain.  A pain so deep that it feels as though you will never EVER be the same again, and the truth is that YOU WON'T! (Be the same again...that is)  This pain is a learning pain, or perhaps we can refer to it as a growing pain.  It's a pain that after it subsides makes you stronger.  You grow a shell around your heart that protects it from suffering the same way again.  Nine times out of ten you WILL love again, you will once again feel the butterflies in your stomach and once again dream of a future, but you will never love again like the first time or better yet like the last time.  Each time, your heart gets a little smarter.  It protects itself to hurt a little less and it does hurt a little less.  

Here I am... in pain again.  This time it's all my fault...AGAIN...but I learned my lesson.  No more married men!  I had never dated a married man before...I guess it was something I had to do (I don't even believe that...what an excuse!)  It's funny, because they may all have different circumstances but they all say the same things.  Why is it that although we've heard all the horror stories, we think we are the exception to the rule.  Well newsflash, we aren't!  They all have SOME reason as to why they are still married and why they can't leave...BULLSHIT!!!!

I've realized what my problem is...I believe in living the moment and of course that is all fine and great at times, but it has gotten me in a heap of trouble.  I wasn't always this way...I was actually very normal.  (whatever that means)

A few years ago, I had a life changing experience that put me in the frame of mind that I am in today.  It was an experience that changed my philosophy of life.  Although it was an extremely difficult time, I am grateful for it.  I do think back with a frown on mistakes that I have made since then especially in my emotional life, but...I don't regret them...I have learned from each one, and I guess that is more important.